Future oh Future

Hey everyone.
So, a lot happen in this week... that make me re-thinking again "what do I want in this life"

in the begin, my plan is :

1. Graduate College and life in Los Angeles
Because, at least If I have degree I can have a work using a tittle as an Art Student Alumni.. or whatever it's called. anyway back to the topic. so I have been thinking...
Is LA the best think that makes you happy !?
to be honest... yes in the last couple years ago, but now... I don't think so
I still thinking what should I do, when I graduate....?

2. Have a perfect job (Living the dream)
Everyone is always wanted that... so am I
but...What is my perfect job !?, Is became a filmaker makes me living the dream ?
to be honest...yes in the last couple years ago, but now.... I don't think so
my heart is still "won't move" and still find it...

3. Living happily ever after with my partner
heh..."Partner" 
This is so confusing. for the last couple years. I really wanted to be with someone and have a partner.
but... Is it really want a partner ?! Can you make your partner happy ? is relationship is the best solution not to be "lonely" ?
To be honest...yes in the last couple years ago, but now....I don't think so
I am starting enyoing my life as a "Single" and I am feeling good being alone.

Everythig has change...
I should thinking again...what the future will be ?

Another daily activity in hoilday

Holiday...I am not just doing reading, writing. gw juga mengalami kind of stupid trouble.

LOVE.
yeaaah I'm tired of always telling my stupid love life. 
I can't tell who is it I am in love. but its really make me sad.
I am an emotionaly person. I don't know, I am cappicorn anyway. haha
  
I've never been in relationship. (maybe its one but its not count)
I've always fail in phase "Getting To Know Each Other". 
Its been 3 years I want a relationship (since 17). 
My life change since in high school, but I'm not saying that its not good. Its good somehow

But in 19 years old I realized something. I want a relationship because I am jealous.
I am jealous to the people who can be able to start a relationship, I am jealous because seeing people in relationship giving love to each other and its so warm and loving. 
That's make me realize that, jealous is never a good in any different of level. 

I realize that when you have a relationship. Are you able to start it, because your jealous ? after your jealousy is gone, are you satisfy ? is jealous the right commitment to start a relationship ?
I realize when you jealous seeing people in relationship, its because you never realize that love is closer that you think. friends, your mom is always there for you... and that was true love. 
you will be in relationship, but not now, Not because your jealous, but you will be in relationship in the right time and the right pleace.

So, that was my another activity in my holiday.
P:S: Thank you  GOD

This is my messy room

What I am doing in the holiday

Hey guys ! how are you ? I hope you're all well...
I am in the holiday now...
day off for college about 2 and a half month.

Today I am gonna show you, what am doing when I am in the holiday.

 1. Always Looking something on internet.

I randomly always looking something interesting on internet, such as YOUTUBE, Streaming movie, and Reading some article.
well, after that I only excersice and getting lazy all day and all night LOL

 2. Read and Write

My Lecturer always say's that when you like something, be addict on it.
so I like film and I like writing. so I watch a lot and read a lot.

3. Typing and Writing

I am not really often to write a story. I often write a word or sentece, such as quotes or some dialog from the film. When I write that, I've got spirit to write and make my imagination flying away throught the word or sentence.
When I making a story I use a lap top, and when I write quotes or dialog I will use the notes to write it.

That's all I do in my holiday. I hope you like it.
thank you so much.
I am sorry for the grammer.