in between menopost and seventen.

don't you ever feel like you're getting back to seventen at some moments?!

gosh! I thought it only in the movies, but it came to me!!! 

so I just broke up with bae... 

it feel sooo much in hurt! maybe it's because my first time... my first time that I felt loved by someone... that finally after 22 years in my life, someone invest their heart to look after each other! 

at the stage, our relationship is really mature, I kept understanding with the situations, now as I look back again!.. it seems the relationship is really good,... I mean we're happy together... but more often is just not what I excpected! 

I thought at first I don't like bae... and now! I love bae after we broke up... like insanely crazy in love!

this situation shouldn't be in here...it should be when I was SEVENTEN!! 

I am tottaly freakin 22!!! keep it head up... ugh! 

while I am having this problem, I should do more important things,... but I can't! I kept being drama selfish asshole who just focus on nothing..yea! your 

freaking fucking broken heart!! 

sometimes I just thinking... "why the world has to be cruel to my love life?" like seriously... it litteraly came up to me... like what should I do to my life while having this broken heart? 

I want to be mature, wise and keep it simple.... I always put that on my mind... 

but not in heart! so stupid Larry! ugh... I hate me! a lot! 

I wish I could be the person who easly ignore people and expect nothing in this universe... so they can't hurt me... at all!

Thank you love.... for runing my heart, my day, my time, and my life... but seriously! I am fucking love you always .... like I did to my "almost bae" .... SW